I have been racking my brain for the last week trying to decide what mini lesson I will do for my Special Methods class and what mentor text I am going to use in order to help me teach my mini lesson.
We talked a lot last week and about visions and values and what unties we will use to reflect our visions and values. That got me thinking, what is really important in the classroom? Everything. So how do I decide what becomes more important to teach in the limited time given to me?
I have a year and a half to figure all of this out and it terrifies me. Every day I come closer to graduating, I become more and more afraid. What if I fail my students? What if they don’t get the education that they really need because I am teaching the wrong things? What if they think I am an idiot and they are only learning useless things? What if I become like all the teachers the I disliked growing up? Will I even realize it if I become like them?
But then I remember that I have so much passion for changing how the classroom is set up now that I know that I will be a great teacher. I have so many great examples in my courses now that I have a great idea of what good teaching looks like. I have the tools that I need to be the teacher that I want to be someday.
In those moments of self doubt and stress, we have to believe in ourselves as educators because if we don’t believe in ourselves, then we will fail. And not only are we failing ourselves, we are failing our students.